I truly believe life is all about attitude.

 Today I chose to get up with the right mind set. To make breakfast, to listen to music, work out, breath, blog/journal and will continue my day with positively. I will find my spiritual, physical and emotional balance. I will speak nice words to Westin only and see the good in him. I will not say anything negative or complain about my situation. I will figure out solutions and ways to brighten my day. I will make my circumstance better by my Attitude. 

Finding true joy not just happiness

I see a lot of my friends doing the happiness project or 100 days of happiness challenge and it's made me think a lot about myself and if I can do something like this. I have been thinking I'll start when I am settled or when things start to look better…but why can't I start now and try? Do I think I will make it 100 strait days? Not a chance (I wish) but I do know that trying is better then not trying at all. If I can't be happy where I am right now then I can never be happy. Yet happiness is a feeling based on circumstances so what I am really searching for is JOY.  Joy is an attitude.

I am in MA for the summer and so far it's been a crazy adventure full of ups and downs. Westin's company moved us into a really bad apartment which is pet friendly and had dog hair everywhere.  They luckily did there best to fix it by deep cleaning the carpets and having a maid service come clean my home after I spent hours scrubbing and trying to get the dog hair away myself. It's gross to have a little guy walking in it and to be pregnant in all of it. My apartment also smelled like wet dog and I guess I was shocked and caught off guard. I thought I was stuck. It took me a few days to get the courage to say something to make the circumstance better and more enjoyable. What's also been hard is the fact I get the car maybe one time a week and am lucky if I do twice a week. I am at least an hour away from anyone I know and there isn't many places to walk to where I am with side walks. The pool isn't sanitary for Eastin &…etc. I could go on and on. So with this being my circumstance it's time to find joy in something really hard. My husband works 60 hours a week, I am alone most days, just Eastin and I. I thought there would be more wives in my husbands office to be friends with. I've tried to get to know people in my ward and around me but it hasn't seemed to work out when it come to play dates.

On top of all this not being super happy hasn't exactly made me the best wife and support to the most perfect man. It's time to make him happier as well and be the better half he deserves.



My goals is this…

• Find joy in this last 5 weeks I am here…then continue when Wes and I are apart for the next month.
• Appreciate the days even if they are not full of people, things, and entertainment to my liking. 
• Treat Westin with the most respect of anyone deserving
•  Help to make Eastin happy and stop thinking about boardom and circumstance.
• Get a good nights rest so I wake up rejuvenated. 
• Make sure I don't eat a ton of sugar that wears me down and actually lessons my energy levels. 
• Mediate, journal and read scriptures or articles for spiritual strength in the morning.
• Stretch and work out each day.
• Wake up tomorrow with a plan to be happy and evaluate how I do each day.
• ALSO NOOOO absolutely NOOO complaining to my husband. POSTIVE things to say only...

TRUST ME I KNOW IT COULD BE A LOT WORSE and it doesn't help that I've been spoiled by living in HI, have had a car most my life, and have been surrounded by friends and family who love me. Yes I am grateful I am not poor, have clean water to drink, food to eat, am not a slave on the sex trade etc… I think about these things I promise. Life is really good even when I've been spoiled and want so much more. SO TODAY I am going to look for the good in all things and go out of my way to focus on CREATING A LIFE I LOVE and finding joy in hard times.

YEP as spoiled as I am and dumb that I sound…I am going to find Joy.

World of Dreams

It was so great seeing Brent's family and Jeff in Orlando this past week. We had a blast in DisneyWorld but it was also super exhausting. Eastin did surprisingly well for his age. I purposely bought a stroller that laid flat so he could get his nap in which was a success. I am so glad i went even though Eastin couldn't go on all the rides. Disney is great and does parent swap fast passes which is amazing.  I didn't miss out on anything and we had enough adults to help and make it a success with Benson and Eden. I went on a few roller coasters pregnant and hopefully baby is okay!!! Eden even road on all the rides she could which only excluded one! Having your kids 5 years old and up is the way to go for the future. She gets the gold star for being so brave. 

Here are some great pictures from our trip. Eden is definitely a girly girl and loved all the princesses. Brent woke up early one morning and stood in a 2 and a half hour line so Eden could meet the girls from Frozen. Such a great dad. Sophia did something so cool to. She had gifts from Tinker Bell each night if the kids were good. Benson got cars and eden got crowns and all sorts of cute things. They are great parents. 

4 years

Cheers to an amazing roller coaster of a ride. I am so happy that I've been able to start this journey with the most incredible man. He puts up with a lot and I mean a lot. It's been so wonderful learning and growing together and making our marriage strong and happy. I enjoy all the time I get with him even in the busy life of being a mom and number #2 coming here soon. I've been blessed with the most perfect person for me and he is the greatest example of the person I need to become each day. He has taught me so much about myself and I love the change I will become being married to him. He is the most patient person I know. During this past time together he has maybe raised his voice at me less then 5 times. I wish I could say I've done the same. He calms me and helps me see life in a whole new perspective. I've had to learn so much self control through him to even be able to communicate. He won't even talk to me if I name call or raise my voice. This is something that is very immature and something that is making me better each and everyday.

He always gives me the ultimate respect even on the worst of days. He treated me like cold and is completely selfless if I need anything. He is always worried about my health, if I am getting enough sleep, if I am happy, and what he can do better. He is nice to everyone and really never says a bad thing about anyone. I've learned to never really talk about anyone and what a waist of time. He really just loves people for who they are the good and the bad.

He's an incredible father to Eastin and has taught me he wants to do it his own way and that is just fine. I've learned that we all have our ways of doing thing and sometimes he does things way better then I can. Eastin wakes up everyday saying "da da" and looks around for him when he is gone. I am so lucky to have a baby dad, toddler dad and I am sure the perfect dad for our kids. The person he is and the example he sets is already enough.

I love how he always makes me feel beautiful. I really have never felt ugly around my husband or worried about not wearing make up, if I have a little chub on me, when I get pregnant or anything. He really just makes me feel attractive and it's nice to know he loves me for me.

We've been to a lot of places and have done amazing things the past 4 years. I wouldn't change Hawaii and now Massetchusetts for anything. These adventures and moving all our stuff makes us crazy but strong together. Adding a second kid in the mix of it all has been wonderful. Wes and I always get on board together and talk through most anything. He takes my late night drama really well and my over dramatic emotions most of the time.

He is what makes me a better person each and everyday. I just consider myself lucky. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY Love BUG. Being in Flordia right now where we started our marriage is a great way to spend 4 years. I cannot wait to see you tomorrow.

xoxo